I also find it interesting that your mom accuses you of sending her info that's full of lies
i find it COMPLETELY ILLOGICAL (i even found it a little strange during my heyday in witnessism), that Witnesses always immediately turn down "apostate" info, and say it's full of lies. that combination never sat well with me. if you're sure it's lies, then you don't have anything to fear, nor anything to lose by checking it out, right? you would know that the logic and strength of your faith couldn't be toppled by it anyways. it seems then, that what they fear more, is that they may find themselves in agreement with some of what they read. but if that's the case, then it can only be because the opposing view that they are agreeing with ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE, and they find it to be true, and it becomes a "truth" to them, either supplemental truth, relative truth, or whatever and they can still decide what to do with it. but it's just more comfortable not to face that.
if a witness agrees to consider opposing views in a complete, logical, and objective way, and afterwards decides he still believes in the witness religion and wants to stay one, well i would respect that decision. it would surprise me that someone would come to that conclusion, but if such is the case, i respect it 100%. but in contrast, holding such a belief blindly and stubbornly, and rejecting anything that hints at disagreeing with your fragile belief out of fear you might lose it, is pure idiocy.
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